My birthday isn't until Monday but I've got the blues.
Caution: Whining Ahead!!!!
I am not looking forward to my birthday but it's not because of my age. I could easily lie about my age so I'm not worried about being
I guess I still have that childhood birthday fantasy. Birthdays were a big deal in my family. I always had a big birthday party and lots of gifts. Even after I got older, my parents always made the day special for me.
Then... My birthday started going down hill ever since I got myself into relationships. I was dating a guy who was pretty nice but inattentive. For two year he didn't get me anything and not even an excuse was given. So, my birthday had been a disappointment. It's my fault really. I had unrealistic expectations, I know. And it rarely work out especially when you have a bf who doesn't give a damn of your special day. But wouldn't it be nice to be special to SOMEONE even for just one day a year. One day! Sheesh! That's not asking for much, is it?
So I learnt. No more bday celebration, no more overblown expectation. And.. surprisingly.. my special day soon turned out to be sweeter than ever!! A simple blessing from a colleague, an e-card drawn by ur buddy, a candy given by the elevator attendant who remembered your bday. I learnt that happiness can be as simple as a warm hug from someone that really cares for you.
Thank God!! I got a bunch of fans cum frens who really really made it up for all!! So my dear, thou this year I gonna be alone in a stranger country but no no no no.. no thanks for your suggestion of getting a brasilian lover. REM wat I said: I I might be alone but I m not lonely =P
Labels: Rumbling.. Mulling.. Howling..
